I have the same problem, and the weird thing is,at least for me, self-criticism often goes unnoticed.
When i'm on periods of fatigue and "other mysterious illnesses" i often think:
- I'm working too hard;
- "It's stress";
- Sleeping bad or tired and don't know why;
- Just keep going, this will pass;
It takes a lot of time for me to understand that self criticism is causing all the problems.
A real life example is, i'm working on a project, and i've been having a good performance and i've been praised about it, but since i'm working alone my head thinks:
- "They're just motivating me, this doesn't even have 40% unit test coverage".
- "When the i start working with other people, this won't work".
- "When i integrate react with my api, this will go bananas".
Truth is, i have zero evidence of this, and truth is, it's not that bad, but in my head, i have this deep fear that all of those things will become true.
Generally it hits me when i reach point where i'm out of ideas on why i'm feeling so bad and so stressed and i start exercising and my head relaxes and starts thinking and only then i realise, "hey, chill dude. Remember that you have a tone more stuff important than that project, life, wife , kid, cat, family."
And i keep exercising so i stay with a focused mind.
Until i stop because i started a new project or other cool stuff, only to fall on the same trap all over again.
I hate this, and i haven't been able to overcome this for years.
It's up and down.
When i'm on periods of fatigue and "other mysterious illnesses" i often think:
- I'm working too hard; - "It's stress"; - Sleeping bad or tired and don't know why; - Just keep going, this will pass;
It takes a lot of time for me to understand that self criticism is causing all the problems.
A real life example is, i'm working on a project, and i've been having a good performance and i've been praised about it, but since i'm working alone my head thinks:
- "They're just motivating me, this doesn't even have 40% unit test coverage". - "When the i start working with other people, this won't work". - "When i integrate react with my api, this will go bananas".
Truth is, i have zero evidence of this, and truth is, it's not that bad, but in my head, i have this deep fear that all of those things will become true.
Generally it hits me when i reach point where i'm out of ideas on why i'm feeling so bad and so stressed and i start exercising and my head relaxes and starts thinking and only then i realise, "hey, chill dude. Remember that you have a tone more stuff important than that project, life, wife , kid, cat, family."
And i keep exercising so i stay with a focused mind.
Until i stop because i started a new project or other cool stuff, only to fall on the same trap all over again.
I hate this, and i haven't been able to overcome this for years. It's up and down.